the image that talks

2007-11-06T21:58:00.000+08:00

goodbye people.
will reply to tags another day.
and i just emailed RUIEN :D
at hype records
i'm so fucking happy (:
but i don't know if she will reply lorhs :X

gonna go sleep. or will be late for training tmr.
nights.

i wish.i wish.i wish i will dream of her again tonight.

2007-11-06T14:02:00.001+08:00

HOHO, i'll be able to watch both the STAR AWARDS show le.
so i'll watch the first show, then go overseas, then come back for the second show.
how great is that? :D
in case some morons don't believe, here's the website
click here to believe.
then there you can choose to view show one or two.

thomas ong got one.
ruien got twoooo. :D

thomas ong one, click here
then click screen hearthrobe nominees. incase you don't know who THOMAS ONG is,

here he is.

for ruien's one. click here

you should know who is ruien right.
for some retards who don't know, here she is.

then click screen sweetheart nominees (:

this kind only can vote by mailing the coupons found in 8days or i weekly. (:

THE OTHER KIND, the calling kind.

click here to get to see the list of boys chosen for the Top 10 most popular male artises.
then explore the page yourself (: no need me to teach you right. :D
click the Top 10 most popular female artises for ruien's one again!

note, they are two different catagories for ruien's one. (:

i'm voting for

and of course .
terence cao and ruien (:
terence cao, 19001123016.
ruien, 19001123030.
don't vote for terence cao nevermind.

BUT MUST VOTE FOR RUIEN (:

so happy, got 11 pictures of ruien le (:
told you i'm a pervert. LOL!
and HEY. i'm so not gonna share those pictures with you. xP
go find them yourself.
HAHA, and all my pictures aren't from the mediacorp website.
cause they are so fugly.
they made it fugly.
they put the www.mediacorp.com.sg thing on all the pictures of cos fugly right. O.O
NA NI NA NI POO POO. not gonna tell you where i got them from xP

and haha, of course, i will only share those that are available on the links i gave you :P

byebye. (: gone off to continue watching metamorphosis already. after that, honour and passion again and again and again! the never ending cycle :X

i didn't dream of ruien last night :'(

2007-11-05T10:06:00.000+08:00

I GOT A WEIRD DREAM LAST NIGHT!
i dreamt that ruien sang 2008's national day song again.
and somehow i was at the conferance hall.
and i also got a chance to question her.
i felt the body heat and all.
felt real, looked real.
IT FELT SO REAL I SWEAR I TRIED TO OPEN MY EYES.
can't express myself. but i actually felt the body heat, and then she FELT SO REAL.
not like i touched her, but hoho, she looked so god damned real too(:
ahhh, i love her (: i just do.
but dreams are just dreams.
i asked her if there will be a season two of metamorphosis and she said YES!
she said they just finished with the show and it'll be aired on CHANNEL 8 soon!
then i asked her for her autograph so she signed on my somesort of homework :X
but when i wake up i didn't see any paper around me :'(
her voice is so god damned nice. and her hairstyle was cool too.
it had that kind of... spiky look, but it was loooong.
long to somewhere around her shoulders. LOL!
how do i explain it? can't draw it, my art sucks.
nevermind. :D

HOOORAH!

its not ~~everyday~~ a celebrity visits your dream you know (:
and i was so excited about it i woke up in the middle of the night.
3:24 52 seconds.

then i so excited i slept again and hoped that she would visit my dream again.

now i'm silently hoping terence cao and thomas ong visit my dreams...
but they don't come nevermind.
RUIEN ALREADY CAME.

SOOO HOOORAY (:

joyful mood cause of that dream :X

and i'm watching 破茧而出 the 9th time already.
i'm a pervert behind the monitor.
HEH HEH HEH.
beware...

GAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D

byebyebyebyebye! (:

RUIEN I LOVE YOU :D

see, maple got your 破茧而出 hairstyle. lols.

i know the hair color is different and the face also different.

but the hairstyle is somewhat the sameee (:

RUIENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

2007-11-04T21:28:00.000+08:00

9 more days to the end of Os'.
no one doing anything about the games day thing.
can't blame them.
i know how it is to have no prepaid in phone.
now i still don't have la.
so i can't blame them for not replying to my messages :X

it feels so nice being in the holiday mood already.
training is coming, but it just isn't in the right atmosphere.
the ~~long lost~~ training is finally coming. LOL!
kinda ee axe see aye tee ee dee. but at the same time also kinda reluctant.
will be leaving singapore one of the weeks of december. :'(
aww. hope i don't ~~miss~~ starawards.
dead or alive, i summon you to call upon the goddess of starawards!
just wish i had the power to.
okay, that makes no sense. TOTALLY.
but please please please, i beg you.
must call 19001123030 okay :D
i already called. and i'm waiting to get scolded by my father :X
but who cares anyway?
its better to support a celebrity than my father's wishes.
sry but i have to defy you this time round.

for you, i will. aren't you touched at all? :D

i can't wait for tmr (:

AMIyumi!
and my dear dear angeline.
i'm missing the girls already :'(
too bad i can't return to school :X
cause remember...?
i drew on the paper until it wanted to belong to the rubbish dump.
then i granted its wish.
i threw it inside so here i am rotting at home.
can't go for supp. rotting rotting and rotting.
and you know what? ~~rotting~~.
oh so nonsensical. :X

but its good in a way.
i've been watching 破茧而出 and 宝家卫国 all day long (:
and now i can remember any episode.
name it and the summary will be yours:D
ahhh. i hate xicun for leaving xiaoqian alone.
as in, why did he have to die!!
i demand for a different ending.
the best ending :
wanrou dead
uncle ming alive
xicun alive
ryan alive

ryan is so... cruel but in a way somehow,
he doesn't deserve to die in wanrou's hands :X
yada yada its a show i know.
and since this post is already long,
i'll make it longer by doing the questionare hinchi ~~sabo~~-ed me to do :X

1) Who sits next to you?
& shaowei and dayana
2) Who's infront of you?
& noone
3) Who's on your left?
& dayana
4) Who's on your right?
& shaowei
5) Who are your best friends in the class?
& JIAHUAN and the rest :X

WHO'S THE...
6) Sport girl in your class?
& duno
7) Sporty guy in your class?
& duno
8) Most 'sadistic'?
& not sure
9) Cutest guy?
& don't have. all are fucktards
10) Cutest girl?
& nurul
11) Prettiest?
& got alot lei. angeline is one of them (:
12) Most annoying?
& ~~AJ LUKE~~
13) Funn-iest?
& BALA. can be irritating at times, but definitely clownish
14) Your favourite teacher?
& MS HUDA
15) Favourite subject?
& english duhh. but i hate that teacher -.-
16) Who's your class president? How's she/he?
& NOEL ong. she's... lovable.
17) Who's the vice president? How's she/he?
& qhairiq. can be anti-social at times.
18) Your class is?
& ONE D (:
19) Do you love your class? Why?
& of course. missing them already. filled to the brim with irritatings and noisys.
but we're still a "family":D

6 lucky ppl whom are selected to do this survey
- CAROLIN
- JIAHUAN
- JIALE
- the girls (:
- primary school mates
- anyone who reads this

goodbye (:

let me witness the tsunami

2007-11-01T15:21:00.001+08:00

i feeel like changing link :X
getting bored with this one already.
no new ideas coming up yet.
no lightbulbs over my brain.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

frankly, i hate this link :X
i want to changeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
duno what to change...

sickening.

went blog surfing and found so many old friend's blog.
and its like, i don't even know they have a blog or email.
I FEEL SO RETARDED.
but it feels good talking to old friends (:
just like the old times.
hey. that makes me sound so old :X

&& here i go listening to this song.
all about betrayal.
and it makes me cry again.
oh, so cry~~baby~~.
call me that or anything else.
i always get too emotional over the last episodes of shows!
its been like, 17 days since the last episode of 破茧而出!
but i'm still watching it at gofish.com
hoho, you can't stop me from watching it :D
sadly, everytime i watch the last episode i cry.
its like, so sad can!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
this is my 6th post about that show already.
not totally but part of it :X
i've watched the whole series 7 times! :D
oh, make it eight. i watch until 17 5/5 already.
i'm proud of it :D
took a break and posted :D
is there gonna be a season two? i hope so :D
after i finish with the last episode, i'm gonna watch 宝家卫国 again!
after that i'll watch 破茧而出 then i'll watch 宝家卫国.
its gonna be so never-ending :D
the thing is, i'm not bored with them at all :D

lets count. don't be lazy. do some maths
i've watched 宝家卫国 3 times :D (i'm talking about WHOLE series)
wow... 3 + 8 = 11!
each show got 20 episodes.
each episode is 1 hour
so 20 x 11 = 220!
wow. i've spent 220 hours on youtube and gofish.com!
woohoo. guess why i watch both shows?
hehhe. i'm like a pervert behind the computer screen xD
just kidding.
what do you take me for?

an encounter is like a lemon pie; sweet and sour
our eyes meet, the fairies jumped
everytime i see you, i think of tiramisu
the slight bitterness and fluffy feeling - a delicate balance
i want to share in your heart
feeling like strawberry
become peaceful, become cheerful
become cute, be in a good mood
smiling and clear, i want to give you a magic that can do all that
become powerful, become courageous
become caring, become wonderful
cheer on this patisserie of love...
this feeling of love

there. thats the translation from japanese to english. ;D
the translation for the starting song for MIRMO ZIBANG!

2007-11-01T10:15:00.000+08:00

its november already! new month, new life ahead!
i hope :X
WOOHOOO!

can't wait till training starts!
i'm rotting at home already (:
I WANT TRAININGGGGGGGGGGGGG :D

aren't they just the cutest little things? :D

TRAINING!TRAINING!TRAINING!

2007-10-31T20:01:00.000+08:00

stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
i need a punching bag.
alrights, i'm oh, so ~~violent~~.
as if. but i really need to punch something!

damn that woman who gave birth to me.
she keep hurrying me to give report card siah.
so unreasonable.
like still got so many more days can.
and i not so stupid can.
now give?
you know what is enjoy what you have now?
so now i enjoy first, leave till the last day then show.
i don't want to live the holidays with misery la.

and its just a report card -.-
whats the big deaaaaal?
actually, i don't know when need to go back to school xD
when is the first day of school?
someone tell me. :D

actually, the holidays like very short lei.
its the last day of october already.
november got so many supp.
not going any.
but those who go even worse.
only got one month of holiday
and thats december.

7th december need to return to school for dental appointment.
one day before my birthday.
what ~~luck~~
on my birthday no teeth how uh? O.O
bogeh :X

i'm freeezing.
its not raining.
the fan is not switched on.
AHHH.
my palms and feet are icy cold.
oh, tell me i'm not sick.
i have to watch 宝家卫国 one okay.

忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍忍
a little while more!
my father hurrying me for the report book already!
i don't have peace.
there's no peace on earth!

can't wait till christmas.
jingle bells.
batman smells.
santa says hello :D
how about superman? :D

i will only give the report book today if pigs fly and it snows in singapore!
alrights.
is that too common?

how about...
when power rangers are in black and white :D
POWER RANGERS TO THE RESCUE.

how about...
when mirmo is not cute anymore D:
alrights, thats the best of the above.
cause hes forever cute :D
rima also :D

i've grown from 157 to 159! i'm taller already! i'm tall-er and more matured :D.
i hope.

toodles.

i still watch kids central (:

2007-10-30T13:58:00.000+08:00

hoho, haven't been updating rights. :D
i'm addicted to youtube already O.O
hmm. lets see.
i've watched 破茧而出, 宝家卫国 and just follow law already.
well, not all on youtube la. 破茧而出 is watched on gofish.com

ants are smelly welly welly.
that time i go kill ants with my fingers
then i go smell,
IT ~~STINKS~~!
*pukes*
they smell like... rotten egg!
or... new tupperware.
or... oh whatever, it just stinks :/

anyways to the anonymous tagger.
kindly leave your name (:
unless, no guts?
or you smuggled into singapore without a passport?
and of course you aren't close to me.
cause people i'm close to know that i have rebornated my hair
before you came here of your own accord (:
and you've got no right to judge me.
please, i didn't invite you to tag anyway,
so don't so dua pai come.
i'm not gonna force you to ~~come~~ or leave
i hope you've got your own limbs to do that on your own. (:
thanks for the tag and your concern btw, but i don't need them.

HOHO, rebornated hair on... Sunday, 30 october. again! :D
and to that person anyways, i didn't reborn my hair because of you, so...
i hope you know what to do.
perhaps you should find the definition of nosey.
this isn't your business to care
and i hope you aren't as nosey as that dawn chia
unless you are her.
well, can't help it if you're her anyways.

back to the point, the auntie go cut layer -.-
so its like so damn weird.
but its okay.
at least am not botak.
still until shoulder there. :D

my phone no more prepaiddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!
给我气死!
correct word anot uh?
sms jiale half way then they say no network connection.
then i call the number then they say
"you have zero dollar and one cent. in your main account, your card expires on the 13 of april 2008. you have 5 bonus accounts. press hex (#) to hear or star (*) to continue."
i cannot believe my own ears then i keep calling until i got the message :D
thats why i can memorise xD

thank you carolin for your help.
you were the only one online who know her number.
still got others, but they're strangers :D

everyone's upset about the change of classes...
what to do?
who ask the bloody victor go change lor...
and everyone have to be seperated.
then sway sway must same class as that bitch...
the on from 1A la... or isit 1B?
don't care.
that bitch same class i buey song AH!
wah laoooooo
sway until like that lor.
hmmm. didn't expect to seperate with the others that quickly.
altho its just one year.
and i can admit i don;t like most of them.
i'm still reluctant to leave :'(
don't worry, one single tear also didn't drop.
anyways we will see each other everyday next year de ma.
not like transfering school or graduating
talking about graduating.
its just 3 more years.
if this one year can pass so fast
the day i ~~graduate~~, it will be as if sec one was only a month ago.
graduate le also don't know whether we will still keep in touch.
some people keep their forms of contact so private only their best friends know.
life is life. words are just words. there are just some things beyond control

I'VE GROWN TALLER! I'M NOW 159! :D

perhaps, tmr i will update.
a very very goodbye (:

damn the man

2007-10-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

i want that phoneeeeeeee!
free also cannot leh. imagine. what GREAT parents.

fuck la. small bitch can get like everything she want.
"mummy i want barbie doll! *cries*" (then buy)
she got so many barbie doll, the total cost of all the barbie dolls is alot lor.
she in total got more than 14 barbie dolls. from kid to adult, from boy to girl.
barbie dolls range from $29.90 - $100++.
i think she already spend from $300-$500 on the pig dolls le lor.
barbie barbie barbie. pig la. give you babi toy see whether you want play.
just a fucking 6 year old demand so much.

maybe i should also learn how to boot-lick.
cause that small bitch boot-lick, like get everything she want.
i give comment, will die like that.
"why you talk like want to fight like that?"
thats what my fucking mother always say to me.
sorry lor, i don't kiss people's ass like her.
and hor, you're too sensitive.
like that also call want to fight. then what do you call talking normally.
your new year resolution, i think it would be better if you learned how to treat everyone equally.
i dont want so young go jail la.
want fight then fight lor. your reflexes like so damn slow.
old woman, don't expect much from yourself.
and definitely, my bones are harder than yours.
yours are so brittle. aww, i pity you. over my dead body.
会给人讲的，父母不会管教孩子。真失败!
i'm just expressing my own opinion.
don't like it, then don't ask for my opinion.
no one even ask you to even ask for my opinion.

so unfair lor, my brother gonna have a phone le, although he got his phone later than me, by just like... a month? his phone is so much much better. W850i you know. i rather don't have phone for that particular month and end up with that W850i lor. everything is SO fucking unfair.
lemme ask you, am i your child?
how come you treat all of us differently?

one, get everything she wants. thats the youngest bitch
two, you're so overprotective. reach home must call you, everything must call you.
don't call you scold, call you also never answer. then call for what? you think i what? working in government uh? go out or come in check in check out uh? thats me.
three, he got the average treatment. don't get everything he wants, but definitely, he isnt as closely watched as i am. thats my brother.
four, she gets all the freedom she wants. she want to go out, go out. come home, go out, no need call. never call, also never get scolded. thats the big bitch.

compare. you can see that i'm treated the worst. go home a little bit late call everyone.
you got see eleanor? you know where she is?
you know, you don't have to be OVER-concerned.you think i who uh?
who are you to treat me this way? you're only my mother fucking mother.
that doesn't make you great. that only means you gave birth to me, it doesn't mean anything else. and please, find the definition of words before you use them, don't anyhow use those words on me lor. need a dictionary? and what, i only get a prepaid card? the rest? oh don't tell me they study harder than me. lame excuses. grow up la, parents. get a life.

had that long long talk with dawn chia again.
but like who cares lor.
don't want me to glare at you?
no one even ask you to look at me.
so want to talk to me, who ask you to look into my eyes?
oh, what the fuck.
last day of school makes you very big isit?
my form teacher then make you very big uh?
and please lor, why treat me like some retarded ass?
you think i didn't get counselled before?
you think i don't know how it feels like?
you think i'm angry with you?
last time no, now YES.
don't expect me to go for counselling.
i don't trust any of those mother fuckers.
last time i went for the bloody counsellings,
they asked me whether i mind if they recorded the counselling.
i said I MIND, and i dont want them to record.
well, unless their english fail.
cause i didn't say I DIDN'T MIND.
and they said they wouldn't let my parents know of it.
in the end, they told my parents all about it.

SO WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I CAN TRUST THEM ONCE AGAIN?

and you think i'm dumb?
whatever i tell them, you would try to go find out what i said right?
oh please, come begging me on your knees for the counselling then i go.
do that, i'll give you a free slap on your face too.
thats the deal.
so deal or no deal?
forget it if you don't want.

and don't expect me to turn up for any of the bloody supplementary lessons.
go back like can add examination marks.
go back learn shapes. you think primary school?
you think i don't know how to find out area of trapezium?
WHAT A JOKE. oh, so sarcastic
i may be stupid but i'm definitely not that stupid not to know basic maths la.

oh, whatever. can't wait till i'm 21 and move out of this torture chamber.
i want to get out of this hell-like life as quickly as possible.
i wonder, if i cry like that small bitch, will i get what i want?
i'm still thinking.

will reply to tags after i cool down.

why does life have to be so bloody unfair?
life is unpredictable

METAMORPHOSIS MADNESS

2007-10-25T11:55:00.000+08:00

just now ms chia called.
ask why i never go school.
then i say i dun feel like lor.
cause "honesty is the best policy".
so yup yupp, told her that i don't feel like going.
then she went on to call my parents.
after a while my mother call home
and nag nagg naggg nagggg naggggg!
also didn't hear a word. just carried on watching
破茧而出 until like a while later, i hear the phone, she put down liao.
went to sms shumin, ask her whether ms chia got call her.
she say she go school -.-
then five didn't come..
me, dayana, siyi, elizabeth and shaowei.
so the group there left 2 people(:
then suddenly she say ms chia cry sia.
i SOOOO happy.
duno what reason she cry also.
oh, what a crybaby.

hohoho, i realised everytime i pass by the seven-eleven in lot one, i HAVE TO look at the ruien
advertisement. :D
the help in aids in africa i think. something like that.
oh whatever, its a red motorola phoneee.
because ruien advertise it, I WANT IT!!!
undeter(red)!
so niceee.
anyone, help me ask the manager in seven-eleven whether they still want the picture anot.
if not then gimme okay... xD
serious one leh. not joking at all

i watch the WHOLE episode as in ep1-20 like 4 times le. :D
today i'm gonna watch the whole series again!
since no school then i'm gonna have some fun watching them.
still so sad uhs.
kena betrayed.
but their wedding pictures take until so niceee.
lemme count how many posts i talk about metamorhosis le...
FOUR in total. (:
so niceee.
this is the FIFTH post about metamorphosis.
pooor pooooooor pooooooooor xiaoqian.
its so hard to accept the fact that her lover is a criminal.
and she's pregnant with his child.
oh, so sad.

vivian is so ~~goddamned~~ heartless.
she didn't cry at all.
ooo, how i wish i could go for an operation to remove my tear glands.
that way, i ~~won't~~ can't cry. (:

awww. their wedding pictures are oh, so nice.
so niceeeeee. did i say that above?
oh nevermind, its still nice even if i say it a hundred or million times. (:
i want that phoneeeeeeeeee.
i want that phoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I WANT THAT PHONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
but carolin say no memory card one -.-
nevermind, i STILL WANT IT!

GAAAAAAAAAAAAA. oh, just ignore me.
HOHO. i'm gonna go watch the last episode again.
cya.
will post again once i watch the whole series. :D

TAG REPLIES:
shiyong : you know its not good to curse your fiancee. see what happened now, you're dead. :D
vivian : of course... then what? 女婿当家？i now also watching 宝家为国! yaye. after i finish the whole series of 宝家卫国, i will watch 破茧而出 again! so nice can. any show that ruien got act i got watch. (: this is called idolise. :D

对你的背叛

don't worry, i betrayed noone

&& the tears sting my eyes once again

2007-10-21T11:23:00.000+08:00

石欣卉, 陈世维 - 背叛

陈世维: 开心伤心谁来决定
陈世维: 用尽真心却得不到任何回应
陈世维: 心如此安静

石欣卉: 记性注定像个刺青
石欣卉: 刺青内心一度沉睡的旧感情
石欣卉: 如此不安宁

陈世维: 牵着你的左手
陈世维: 你右手悬空
陈世维: 仿佛是有所保留

石欣卉: 握着你的右手你有话不说
合唱: 隔了层沉默
合唱: 你慢慢疏离我

石欣卉: 无声的背叛
石欣卉: 原来失去是那么简单
合唱: 你是你(我)要的
合唱: 为何变成一个陌生人
石欣卉: 来陪伴

陈世维: 对你的背叛
陈世维: 是回忆要时间去替换
陈世维: 我尽力勇敢但如果你已下判我
合唱: 只能说遗憾

石欣卉: 坚定决定谁会关心
石欣卉: 用尽全力
石欣卉: 却得不到同样回应
陈世维: (却得不到同样回应)
石欣卉: 何时能平静

陈世维: 耐性扫兴不断提醒提起内心
陈世维: 还不确定的新感情
石欣卉: (还不确定的新感情)
陈世维: 如何能同行

陈世维: 牵着你的左手你右手悬空
陈世维: 一定是有所保留
石欣卉: 握着你的右手你绝口不说
合唱: 隔一层沉默
合唱: 我慢慢疏离我

合唱: 无声的背叛
合唱: 原来失去是那么简单
合唱: 你(我)是你要的
合唱: 不要这场用猜疑交手
陈世维: 的冷战

合唱: 对你的背叛是不要个陌生人陪伴
合唱: 我尽力勇敢
合唱: 但如果你已下判我
陈世维: 只能说遗憾

陈世维: 对你的背叛
陈世维: 是不要个陌生人陪伴
合唱: 我尽力勇敢
合唱: 但如果你已下判我
合唱: 只能说遗憾

i've got no more tears left. hahaas.
listened to this song and didn't speak for a very long time.
what a song. what a nice song.
xiao qian so poor thing can...
this part made me tear up la
around 06:00. haishh. after you watch that,watch this
omgs. so sad can. ~~poor poor thing~~.
stupid wanrou. she so dumb.
want to die kill herself la.
kill xicun for what sia.
xicun didn't do anything to her.
and he's also kinda stupid. if he didn't turn,
the bullet would've shot his right shoulder
and not his heart.
haishh... then she also kill ryan sia.
so dragontooth doesn't exist anymore.
all because of WEN WAN ROU -.-
and thats shiyong. waha. O.O

heh. so sad. i want part two!
take a look at ruien's interview c.
you won't expect ruien to laugh. somemore she laugh until so funny sia.
and her chinese is not good. she speak a mixture of english and chinese.
" so... sorry. HAHAHA"
lols.
here are the rest of the interviews...
ruien (a) - click here
ruien (b) - click here
ruien (c) - click here
hanwei (a) - click here
hanwei (b) - click here
ix shen - click here
terence (a) - click here
terence (b) - cick here
yvonne - click here

yaye. i recorded alot of the songs.
and i took many many photos too.
and i still got the video.

SO NICEEEEEEE. (:

next time i wanna become CID.
minimum qualification is a degree leh. means must graduate from university leh.
wah seh. die la.
for more infomation, click here
hmmm.

and hor... must vote for ruien in starsearch okay...
each call is $0.80. includes 7% GST...
1900-112-3030
1900-112-3016 for terence cao.
1900-112-3003 for chen han wei.
i want thomas ongggggggg one. why don't have? :'(
must vote okaaaaaaaay? (:

TAG REPLIES:
wanyin : ha, you better do what you say
you cheng : goody.
adelaide ' : lols, but i treat it like its more than a show. this show is so nice. mostly about betrayal. but its so heartbreaking la. somemore... oh nevermind. :/
shiyong : yea yeah. i know you scared the mask right. next time i go buy monster mask and scare you uh!
HIRA :D : ummm.
shiyong : HEY! i not ke ming de okay. if i ke ming de then you wan rou. then i RAPE you ah... i dun care uh. i AN XIAO QIAN. YOU HU XI CUN. lols. change le la -.-

开心伤心谁来决定？

2007-10-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm. tmr is hinchi's bday.
can't wait.
don't know whats gonna be my mood tmr uhs.
and anyone who wants to watch the whole series of
Metamorphosis, 破茧而出.
the link is... click here
the videos will play automatically in sequence...

so niceeeeeeee.
anyway...
i send some of you the song right..
listen to it with earpiece sounds nicer...
if you play it in loudspeaker, the gunshots will sound like air currents -.-
but if you listen through earpiece, you will only hear gunshots.

soooo nice.
RUIENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
ohmygods.
suddenly i'm obsessed over celebrities...
oopsadosey.
ruien is so cool. ruiennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

interested.

2007-10-15T21:24:00.001+08:00

hating you exhausts me.

don't wanna hate you anymore.
can't make myself hate you anyway.
hate itself is a very strong word.
now i finally realised, i have never hated you.
its just detest. ohwells :/
tmr got sch. don't wanna go.
but i'm gonna be a good girl and go.
if i dont go i'll be going against jiale's wishes. lol.
so sad eh. i can type the word but i just can't do what this word means.
the word is, lol.

tmr will be my dooms day.
i guess i will get my result slip sooner or later ehs.
i don't wanna go to sch tmr.
not in the mood.

fuck. i don't have any privacy.
everytime i blog, some fucking person have
to stand behind me to see.
now, its my younger sister.

whatever, i don't even have my own privacy.
parents read my sent items and inbox.
thats why i have to clear them now and then.
blog, any of the fucking family members have to see my little actions.
talking about fair, my siblings aren't so closely watched.

everything is so so so unfair.
today last episode of my favourite show.
metamorhphosis, 破茧而出.
9 oclock. channel 8.weekdays only.
english speaking but i still watch chinese shows.
what a joke. i clearly don't understand what they say.
i only read the subtitles. i'm not that stupid la. -.-
only 20 episodes. so pathetic.

I WANT SEASON TWO! I DEMAND FOR IT!

ha, i'm typing this during the advertisement.
so touching.
Xichun go give the Xiao Qian a parcel.
inside got alot of preserved stuff.
those sour stuff cause she pregnant ma.
stupid wanrou!!
so cruel. go kill the Ouyang mother then
kill the Xichun then kill herself.
Xiao Qian go open the parcel after
Xi Chun die then saw the ring inside.
but too late la, the Xichun already die.
so sad.
then the Xiao Qian is now a widow.
cause she gave birth to a baby.
but i find something funny.
why only the di lun know that she give birth?
how come the ouyang, mya and the others didn't come uh?
WEIRD!
aww. but its just a show la.
but its oh, so touching.
i always love last episodes.

hmm. i want the song.
i wanna go mobtv.
i wanna go buy the video.
so nice man. i can't find the video on youtube.
sorta teared up in the ending la.
don't worry i didn't wet my face. just my eyes.
and the tears mystically remained inside and didn't flow down.

awww. suddenly i feel so useless.
oh just kill me.
i wanna go back to the old ele who laughs everyday.

hinchi's birthday is coming up.
i'll be there.
and sry guys.
teacher's day i didn't have the mood.
so i was kinda "anti-social".
sry ehs.
but i swear i'll try to be happy...
i hope.

TAG REPLIES:
joey (: : hmm. not really angry la. so you no need sad.
shiyong :) : nahh. i'm always a good girl.
wanyin : hmmm. you say one ah...

i hope i do.

2007-10-14T16:42:00.000+08:00

and here we go again
with all the things you said,
and not a minute spent
to think that we'd regret.
so we just take it back,
these words and hold our breath,
forget the things we swore we meant.

somehow dis-a-point-ed with my own results and class position.
its not good at all. at least i'm not satisfied.
so many people are satiated with their own results.
what can i do?
all i want is to remain in the same class as my classmates now.
altho i really hate some of them but yeah, its fate.
i hate them but i can't bear to leave them.
altho its just one year, and i only talk to some people like a few times,
i realised that the 40 of us make one big family.
i can't bear to separate with you guys.
kill that potato who want to go change the class arrangements.
sit back, relax, and cry.

4 days without phone.

ITS KILLING ME!!

hard to believe the fact

2007-10-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

everyone's against me isn't it?

i'm so tired trying so so so hard to smile. it's so easy in the past tense.
since a picture speaks a thousand words. i'm gonna let pictures do the talking.

come to think of it now, its gonna be the end of sec one life soon. which means... new teachers. new friends. more homework. sec two life is so so so... don't know how to say.

well... i passed MT. i can't believe my MT better than junkit. unbelievable. not trying to boast or something but. i can't believe junkit and menghock failed. brothers are brothers. not real brothers though. BOTH of them fail english and MT. so... goodbye to them. there goes NA. not trying to curse them but, look at how the behave in class. clowns. they don't even pay attention. bleahh. in no time, they'll be NT. look at how they fail subjects. maths science english mt. so what they pass? one or two subjects i guess, they're the only marks. . art and dnt. good luck for the rest of your life.

can't say i did very well. can't say i did badly either. a little below average i guess. BUT I STILL PASSED MT. and stupid ms chia didn't show me my english overall. fuck her. AHH. i duno my english marks. it goes like this.

1. name
2. register
3. ic
4. total compo marks
5. paper two marks
6. overall marks
7. ranking.

she covered nothing but overall. stupid. dun wanna show me overall. ranking 2! OMGS. maybe thats not mine. nah, ain't that lucky to be ranked second for english.

tmr got sch, go there clap clap clap. at first i thought it was a waste of time. but if i can be there to show my ~~senior~~ instructor support, why not? CLAP CLAP CLAP. then must sing school song two times. stupid. and i have to wear a bloody tie. i hate tieeeeeee. didn't go to school on monday actually because of that reason. heh.

TAG REPLIES:
PERlala'[x : relinked.

remove my mask

2007-10-10T20:28:00.000+08:00

i wanna delete my blog.
but something is hesitating me. hmmm. it may be an ~~emo~~ post, but whatever. i don't want to spread my disease. more and more and more and more people are getting the disease. don't wanna spread it anymore. so its final. i'll just let this blog decompose. hey wait no, i'll just come back here to reply to tags.
sry for the late replies anyway.

TAG REPLIES:
Aisyah : alrightys. relinked.
JIAHUAN(: : alrights alrights. need an english tutor? uhh.
NOEL(: : MAMA! love you too.
wanyin : na. tag tag tag. lols

2007-10-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

i know what i want to say,
i just don't know where to begin.

hmms. i just fear graduation. more like growing up. its like, i always say i want to dye my hair, go to work, buy myself a car and whatsoever. but i fear growing up. its just a fear to lose my friends. given my bad grades and not so rich family, i wouldn't get a high pay job and there's no need talking about buying a car. its too late to study now. i just don't have to the spirit to study. no spirit, no mood. pathetic.

don't y'all fear stuffs? don't you fear walking along the streets alone and the crowd walk pass you and they seem to walk so fast? the typical kind of scene mediacorp always use when somone break up -.- you should know what i mean la.

especially if you have a full-time job. and if your friends also have full-time job, its very common for you to be lonely. hmmm. its so difficult to accomplish things. either you have this way, or the other. see uh.. if you got a full-time job, you'll probably earn more money. that'll mean i'll be able to buy a CAR. and if i don't have a full-time job, i can probably hang out with friends like almost everyday. the only problem : NO infinite cash. get it?

ugh. life is so hard to live.

alrights. its gonna be the end of the year soon. i don't want to develop any misunderstanding or hatred between friends. so sorry to all you guys if i have done anything wrong in the past. alrights? and of course, i will forgive. but see how my brain works? my brain chooses to remember somethings i don't want to. MAHIRAH calls it selective memory. yea yea. the same old me.

hmmm. i'll forgive... (:
anyways thanks for coming to take the letter. GOOD LUCK.
i'll reply to tags next time.

ahhhh

2007-10-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

oh wells :/

sometimes i just hate myself for not being able to understand myself and others.
people may ask, like why. well.... its difficult to explain. the word why is already a word so difficult to define. let me ask you. what is the meaning of why? nono, no cheating. not allowed to use the dictionary my dears.

thank you to people who woke up in the middle of the night or about to sleep. you guys sacrificed sleep for me. there's nothing i can do to repay your kindness. the least i can do is to just thank you guys and reply your messages in the middle of the night too. (:

=-=

making an effort to smile. already typing (:s and xDs
well at least i smiled once in a while today.
so many people say "DON'T EMO LE LA"
actually its kinda crap-y. cause its so easy for you to say to another person. but its difficult for you to cheer up.
when another person say to you, you can't cheer up either. so... get my point? nevermind if you don't.

=-=

all paper over le. yaye. which means no school tmr and the day after tmr.
after school went home took a bath and met up with carolin, vivian, shumin and angeline at lot one. went to arcade and like yaye, i rock in daytona. lols. not really. keep getting 1st except once :X

saw TAN yenjun and jingting. heh heh. and i guessed they tot vivian was a boy -.-
oh wells:/ vivian, grow long hairs, tie pigtails. wear dress. high heels. mascara. eyeliner. blusher. eyeshadow. and all the makeup you can find. xD

then... uhh. so many things happen la. can't really rmb. all i rmb is i landed in carolin's house. ya. altho i SWEARED not to go in again -.- so carolin caged it up and we played wii. have to be honest la, i suck at it. well, its already very good for a beginner okay! haish. play the boxing half way then the stupid dog somehow opened the door and i ran up the stairs :X oops sry. SCARY
then after that... duno what happened. then go home le. like yaye. -.-"
something seems missing in this post. oh whatever.

=-=

sorry like an angel. heaven's not the thing for you. but i'm afraid.

TAG REPLIES :
jaden : hmmm. then just die lor.
benjamin : okay la. -.-" link you le lor.

to be serious, i swear í'm really afraid.

2007-10-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

just here to do a quick post. after exams still cannot use comp cause siblings still got exams. so its like so unfair. cause when i got exams that time they can use. they got exams i cannot use. so yea. thats being unfair. oh whatever. we'll see yea. (:

today completed DnT exam. 7 down, one more to go. left the stupid art paper. jus online to look for some pictures actually. but i tot i'd pop around here first. tmr is the last and the final paper. so... good luck to me. and good luck to those having Os' and PSLE. (:

TAG REPLIES:
jaden : somehow, i know i'm capable of so much more. but i'm not doing anything to prove it. well, thats life.
wanyin : matured baby :D
NOEL(: : what? o.o (:

sucidal attempt

2007-09-30T15:39:00.000+08:00

could be better ;
could be worse ;
could just be different.
the best thing i can do now is just let it go.

maybe it was meant to be forgotten, but i simply can't.
talking about let go, it ain't as easy as saying it.

other people see you more clearly than you see yourself,
so people understand you more clearly than you understand yourself.

i think i just need to scream and hear my own echo, probably only then i will wake up.
i'm in this illusion, i guess.

mine isn't the first heartache in the world.
my wounds will mend, and i'll be whole once again.
it just needs lots of time.

some day, we may be legends.

=-=

i realise everytime i try to concentrate, someone would make me laugh or distract me.
i guess they meant well, they didn't want me to be emo i guess.

i want pets but i realise that i'm afraid of like all living things except plants and human beings.
thats the funny thing huh. weird weird me.
still rmb-ed that time went to carolin's house. then the dog keep barking, and i ran up the stairs like ahhhhhh! so anyone... if you got pets at home... don't invite me over unless you cage them up or something. jiale's dog is so tiny, but yea, still scared. stupid phobia -.-
my uncle's dog is a bitch, go bite me last time. bitch as in female dog, not what you think i meant.
=-=

in life, everyone is given a gift.
some just open theirs sooner than others.

when will i get to open mine? i don't believe i have a gift. i can do ~~nothing~~.
well, thats the truth.
the only fact is that i have low self-esteem. teachers have told me that and i can't deny it.
but however low it is, i am still who i am.

TAG REPLIES:
wanyin : hey thats insulting. not a xiao jie. still a kid, not even 1% matured yet. xP
jaden : don't worry, i have my 5 senses and i'm awake. well, even if i'm not a failure, i'm neither a successor, so that still makes me nothing.
adelaide : don't worry, its more than a hundred. (:
PEARLYN(: : predator! get away from me!! hehes. where's sugar? xD

what's my problem?

2007-09-29T10:51:00.000+08:00

everything good needs a replacement.

live the life you want to live.
be the person you want to remember.
make decisions, and make mistakes.
if you fail, at least you went out and tried.

there are no shortcuts to any place worth going.

some people get down in a hole so deep they don't know what to hold onto.
and some people, like me just make the choice to let go.

we are what we are.
and sometimes, that's not enough.

all people smile in the same language.

this storm needs to come take me away.
to a place without my family and friends.
i need to be alone; to focus my attention on myself.
so maybe, one of these days, i can figure out who i really am.

==

i suffer from Athazagoraphobia.
alrights its a so called CHIM word, but here's the definition.
Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting.
i fear graduation because of Athazagoraphobia! i'm afraid to lose all my friends.
i'm afraid i won't get to meet them again!
i'm afraid they change number or move house and didn't inform me.
so... yea. thats my phobia. poor poor me. yea. thats life.
so yea. last time was Paraskavedekatriaphobia.
definition, fear of friday the 13th.
a FUNNY word.
Caligynephobia - Fear of beautiful women.
how about a weird one?
Hexakosioihexekontahexaphobia. so chim eh? fear of the number 666.
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia - Fear of long words
all the chim chim words. :D
i will kill anyone who has Xanthophobia.
Fear of the color yellow or the word yellow.
AHHH! i will kill you!!!!!!!! :D hmmms.

TAG REPLIES:
adelaide ' : okayokay! HUG ME MORE. hahs. FREE HUGS :D RUN AH! i'm gonna catch you.
NuRuL : heh. long time also never tag you. life sucks la.
benjamin : then i link you lor, then you must link me also. heh
Jaden : i don't even think i'll become a successor. probably a failure for the rest of my life.

so yea, for jaden who can't view the picture.

here it is

a failure till the end;